Theme Park life...

Life is just like being in a theme park. There are so many rides that are similar to our life and our experiences.

Take my life as example.

My life has a roller coaster. When the roller coaster cart is going up, you'll feel scared and worried. It goes very slow and makes "clinkity-clankity" sounds. This can represent that during difficult times, I feel scared and lonely, and the sounds are like old people's bones cracking, which means that when I face difficulties, I feel like I'm dying. During bad times, time tend to move slower, 5 minutes will be like 1 hour.

When the roller coaster cart go straight forward flat, the speed increases. Not much, but it does. The time in my life goes on as normal.

Suddenly, the roller coaster cart falls. I'm having fun. But in less than 5 seconds, the fun stops. The distance is as same as the one going up. This proves that time passes a hell lot faster when we're having fun. And in that 5 seconds, you don't think of anything. In your mind, it's just "YEAH!!!!!".

My life also has a Merry-Go-Round. No matter how long you ride it, everything you see will be the same. This is the "Deja-Vu"s my life has encountered, example: the mistakes I made and the normal activities in daily life. And if you ride the Merry-Go-Round, it also goes up and down. Same thing as the roller coaster.

Let's not forget about the spinning cups. I'd just spin the cup, as fast as possible, because it's fun. Spinning and spinning, I feel dizzy. I can't even stand straight. This is the time I've fallen sick. I ate junk food and drank carbonated drinks. I didn't care about what's going to happen to me. In the end, I'm sick and suffering.

I hope my life goes on like a theme park, because everyone leaves a theme park with a heart full of joy and reluctant to leave. So I hope that when I leave this world, I leave with happiness and joy.

Quitter never wins..

Suddenly, I can't take it anymore.

I thought I was doing okay, but I'm actually not. As I said many times before, I hate growing up. I hate going through puberty. I hate being a teenager. I want to be a little kid again, free and happy. I don't have to worry about my future, don't have to worry about anything.

I feel like quitting music. Smash my violin, smash my piano. If I want to continue, just with percussions. Hitting things is a good way to release my stress. If you ask me what kind of stress I'm facing, I can't tell you. Not because I don't want to, but because I don't even know what I'm facing.

Quitting music narrows down my path for my future. Anyways music was never my first aim. It was like second or third. I want to continue with my first aim, but I can't. How could I? The good teachers left. The class ended. No one from the same level as me wants to continue that class. There's no way I could attend the class myself. Difficult for me, difficult for the teacher, difficult for the class to go on. No teamwork, no nothing.

I want to quit. I know I will regret it later, but I feel that I don't have a target to go on. I just feel like wasting my time.

I feel like going to school. I know it's weird, but in school you just study. Study study study. Whereas at home, you're exposed to computers and TVs and sooner or later I will thinking about what's going to happen next, which will make me frustrated.

I don't want to go through that depressed period again like I did in form 2. A stupid year that is. I want to enjoy my final 2 school years. I must. I just don't know how.

Bintulu~

I think this is the FIRST trip ever that my heart did not come back to KL with me.

This 3 days 2 nights trip was certainly awesome. Although there's nothing much in Bintulu, we had tons of fun there. You won't believe how friends can make a boring place turn into a wonderland!

Took really really lots of photos there. More than 800!! There are some really really nice photos, thanks to Chun Yeen, Nicholas and Tjia Hwei =) The ones that I love the most are these hehehe...

LCM~

We are the White Queens

I wish you everything =)

It's been quite a long time since I read my friends' blogs. And I found some updates =) but unfortunately it's about some sad things.

Guys, I know growing up is hard. As we grow, we might have some special feelings towards the opposite sex. This is a step that everyone has to go through. Don't doubt yourself that you will not be loved by other people. We still have a long way to go, and we can't be certain about our future. Who knows what might happen tomorrow? Maybe some other people like like you? Maybe the person you like likes you back? Maybe the person you like doesn't like you back, but then you realized that he/she's not for you?

We're not the ones who decide how people feel towards you. We can't blame them for not liking us the way you want them to be. They will still be your friend even though the relationship could not be extended. Trust me =)

So, please don't feel sad anymore. And PLEASE...NO EMOs!!! I hope the 3 of you reads this, cause you should know that I'm always with you guys, anything you can find me =) Love ya~

It's Official...AGAIN

It's official! I've quitted FACEBOOK!!

I've never feel so proud of myself. And I can't believe my brilliant idea. I did not deactivate my account, though. It's too priceless and full of fond memories and comments. Instead, with my brilliant idea, I asked Loch Yeen to change my password and I did the same thing with him. I gave him my old password and he went into my account and changed the password. We agreed that this password will be revealed during the holidays and right after the holidays, the passwords are changed again.

I've never felt so free in my life. It's like I've stopped being a slave. This is to prove to Facebook that it is not ALL THAT. And I have the power to quit it!!

The passwords changing idea was on 11.30 last night (7th March 2010). It is a historical moment for me.

On 6th of March, Sing Yee, May Shuen and I performed violin in Endah Villa for some Chinese New Year event. It was really really weird cause CNY is over. But then, we played Colours of the Wind on stage and Luo Ye Gui Gen with Love my Lord to thee near the Saxon Booth. Quite embarrassing but still quite fun. Received a flower from a little girl (mind you, all performers get a flower) but this is the first time I received a flower for performing. It was a nice flower but it was very fragile. I squeezed it too hard and it broke into half. But then i exchanged with Sing Yee because she didn't wanna bring home the flower.

Last saturday, 27th of Febuary, we had a CNY celebration in Saxon. Really awesome for us choir members but someone busted our balloon. Ish! That guy really irritates me! =(

Overall it's OKAY. Orchestra was fun! Last week and this week's (which was yesterday) too! But I felt that yesterday was really really really nice. I kept dancing during the Dance of the Yao and Satchmo! with Xin Yi. We also kept doing "RIGHT! LEFT! RIGHT IN FRONT AND BACK! RIGHT TO THE FRONT TO THE LEFT TO THE BACK! RIGHT IN FRONT AND BACK!" Hahaha embarrassing moment was that people saw us (Lock See, Mr Chan, Geoffrey, percussion members) but it was okay though. All that matters is that we HAVE FUN! Whooooooooo.....

Another week of rehearsal and we're off to Bintulu. Exam-ing now but I'm looking pass exams to the holidays. Bad news today was that we have holiday extra classes. SUCKS!! AND IT'S DURING COOKIES DAY!! I wanna cry..

the BEST exam ever

Well, excluding PMR. PMR was the best of the best.

Today's exam was SPECIAL. We had English paper 1 and 2 and then Modern Maths paper 2.

Modern Maths paper 2 was so fun! We were taking the exam till halfway and then Mr.David came in and asked us all to go to the North Hall for the briefing of the World Maths Day. As he left the class, everyone got up and cheered and discussed. LOL I don't think it's a good idea posting here. But if you wanna know what happen, you should ask me. It was really awesome!!

And today 7pm, my first participation in the World Maths Day. The World Maths Day is a competition which involves students around the world. It is an online competition of math questions and whoever's team completed it the fastest and got the most points won. Right now Cempaka has 5 team in the top ten. EXCITING! This competition goes on for 48 hours non-stop. So tomorrow and Thursday we don't need to go to school, so that we can continue with our maths at home, where there's fast internet connection.

HOLIDAYS AGAIN BWAHAHHAHA

MY BIRTHDAY!!

Just a brief description of my birthday!

I never expected much for this birthday. Maybe that's why this year's birthday was AWESOME!!

I received SMSes and FB comments wishing me early Happy Birthday since friday. And on Sunday night, the wishes were getting more and more. I did not expect that much comments!

As I did for Nick, he called me the moment it was midnight, just to wish me happy birthday. Thanks Nick! Then Chun Yeen skyped me with a picture of Leehom eating and pretended he was Leehom. He searched for happy birthday songs sang by Leehom in YouTube and played it for me. It was funny and lame, but it was really nice of him! Haha Thanks Chuny!!

I had pizza with Ying Fang, Yi Pei, Chui Kien, Chee Keen, Wuan Di, Wen Chung, Alex, Chong Yann, Jun Qiang, Wayne, Teck Leong and Yuen Sum on my birthday, around 1.40pm. Cempaka was off for Swimming Gala holiday, so I had to wait for them to finish school. But this meal was quite fast because everyone including me had to leave by 3pm. Suprisingly, Ying Fang and Chui Kien went to buy a birthday cake for me in Tong Kee and the whole bunch sang happy birthday to me in Pizza Hut. It was really really really really touching. We had a really nice meal and it was nice to see them again.

After that, I found a video that Shuen posted for me, titled "Happy Sweet-16 Cheng Mun!" and she was playing the guitar while singing Happy Birthday to me. This is really really special. I have never seen anyone with this type of present (except leehom, of course xD). Shuen, Love ya!!

Later I got a skype call from Shuen and Loch Yeen. Then they started playing a happy birthday duet, LY on the violin, Shuen on the guitar and singing. It was damn funny that they were discussing after I answered the call and I was waiting for them to discuss finish.

My parents, of course, did not forget my birthday too. Sunday midnight my mom took out a bag from the storeroom and handed to me. IT WAS A NIKE SPORTS BAG!! and A BASKETBALL SHOE BAG!! OMG!! It was just what I needed! I did not have anything to put my basketball shoes and sports attire to school. Love them a lot! Thanks mom and dad!!

And last but not least, Thank you everyone for making my 16th birthday such a wonderful day. Kisses to you guys..? haha..

It's my birthday. Yippee.... ==

I can't write any thing now. I'm a little pissed..

So I'll brief you through the things later...