My PMR results are going to judge whether I'm transferring school or not. I really want to transfer to Cempaka cause I think the facilities there are better and there's an Orchestra there! Plus, I can start all over again, not getting involved into too many activities. The cocurriculum activities there are so cool!! And according to my friend, the view of the school is FANTASTIC!!
But then, my grades are really sinking. From a solid A to an unstable C which will drop to D. During these trial exams, i hesitated when answering the questions. The reason I get high marks is because of the tips teachers gave. But in the PMR, there won't be any TIPS!! I dont think i can pass some subjects, let alone get As.
And the thing is, I seem to can't concentrate to study, no matter in school or at home. I dunno what's happening to me. I'm also neglecting my homework a lot. I never seem to have to urge to finish my homework or do revision. I'm worried about my exams, but I can't study. I'm not motivated.
And then, at first I was really hating SMKBBSP. But now, seemed like our class is so DAMN friendly!! Plus, my classmates are always making up jokes which will cheer anyone up. The stories in our class are hilarious. This makes me to have second thoughts about transferring to another school. Will I have such friendly classmates? Will they accept me? Will I fit in? Will they ignore me and treat me like a weirdo? These are the questions that keep haunting me.
But then again, if I stayed in SMKBBSP, I might have lots of pressure. Among teachers, students, duties..I really don't know what to do, what to think. Only 2 persons in school knows that I might transfer to another school next year. I can't discuss this with them cause I dont think they will understand what I'm going through here.
I really feel pissed. Sometimes, I hope that a star will fall from the sky and help me solve all my problems.
