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Nothing much about me. I'm just a regular girl, studies in a regular school, do nothing but regular stuffs..BUT I AM MADLY OBSESSED WITH LEEHOM!!
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Monday, October 19, 2009

Have you ever?

Have you ever wonder, why are the skies blue? Where is the end of the universe? Why are we alive? What is life? Who is the real creator of the universe? Which is the most powerful thing in the whole, wide world?

Sometimes when I stare into something, no matter wh
at it is, the sea, the sky, the trees growing in fear of being cut down, the tall concrete buildings that interfere with the with the natural view, the TVs and computers and cell phones that are now zombifying the new generations, I keep asking myself, why are we doing all these things? Why are we trying so hard, chasing our dreams so hard, even though we know we will die some day. Why are those people who neglect their health, their happiness in life to earn so much money? I mean, what if when people try so hard to get money, they die unexpectedly and didn't had the chance to splur the money they've earned?

Isn't that sad? Isn't that irritating? Some people say that happiness comes after you've done your hard work. Well, sometimes that works. But what if we try our whole life to achieve that, and we had to leave to another world so suddenly, we didn't e
ven know it was happening? That way, we worked so hard and hadn't the time to enjoy ourselves and we left this world?

I know, there's no free lunches in our life, and we need to work hard to get what we need. We only have to work hard so that we can pass our living days with
ease. Just have to get enough money for three meals a day, and clothes, and shelter. Maybe a little more for save keeping. But what I don't understand is, why do people put all their money away, stingy to use it for food and other important purposes instead of useless things that can only collect dusts? If you don't want to treat yourself good, then why not use the money and donate it to charity? Help some of the unfortunates, letting them get a taste of the good life. Useless things are meant to be kept in the stores behind the glass racks, not to be bought.

And what we always hear are "Girls are hard to understand". Why is that? Why are there not a quote that says the boys hard to understand? Well, we don't understand how can they stand being dirty like wearing the same clothes for 1 week, without washing or changing, or not taking bath before sleeping after a tremendous sweat bath? THAT is disgusting.

The most important thing, why do humans think they're the best in everything? Why are they underestimating the animals or plants? Anything can happen in this world. Maybe, someday the plants take revenge on humans because they have be
en half-destroyed by humans. Maybe, someday the animals team-up and started attacking humans, innocent or not. We don't know what they're thinking. We don't know what they are capable of. Maybe they have feelings too, how do you know? Did the animals or plants ever came up and told you they have no feelings so we can just kill them or abandon them?

And then, I've been very interesting in the wonders of the
world. Some of them were built in the ancient days, like the Great Wall of China and the Pyramids. How can they build it? It sure must take lots of time cause they did not have cranes back in the old days, and yet they manage to build it well and amazing. The pyramids, I believe it was built by aliens. No way people could build something so tall, so big and so heavy in the dessert. There are quite a number of pyramids in Egypt and even if human did build it, they can only build one because the population of humans decreased drastically because they died either being over exhausted or sunburned. And the Stone Hedge, it's impossible that it is naturally arranged that way, and also unlogical for humans to put it up. It's so heavy, maybe even a crane won't be able to put it up.


We live in wonders. There might be some things that we will never know, even when all human beings extinct.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

This is so cool

Oh my god, I love myself for doing this. Haha..

Fine, I sound really ridiculous. But it really is nice and funny! Take a look at what I edited!


Oh come on! It's cool you've got to admit it. I know what you're thinking. And I know you know I know what you're thinking. So, save it. Haha..

Well, this is my shortest post ever. I just want to share this photo. I love it so much..haha...

Thursday, October 15, 2009

PMR is finally Overrr~~~

OMG Harty I'm so happy right now!! HAHAHA one of the best times of my life: days after PMR...

For the whole year, all of form three were getting rea
dy for the PMR exam. And now, it's finally over! I really can't believe it!!

Haha, the happy days are here again. Our class became somewhat a casino. Today we had four groups of people all playing Chor Dai Dee. Although we
did not gamble with money, but we like to think of it as gambling, too.



Can see my classmates all happy and cheerful and free at last. No more school, no more books, no more teacher's dirty looks! Almost everyone brought handphones to school and didn't bother to hide it from the teacher. They even played music out loud. Haha, I wonder if we bring DVD players to school will the teacher mind? They're not even teaching anymore. HECK they don't even bother about us anymore!

What about laptops? Can we go online in school? That'll be fun. Imagine you online and IM your friends who skipped school and tell them you're going online in school, and you turn on your webcam and asked your classmates to wave to your friend. That would be so cool.

Just like Lee Hom's song, this is somewhat a 另一个天堂. I know, it totally ROCKS!! I want these times to last forever, no worries, no troubles, no frustration. I can finally feel like I can really fly, up high in the sky. I have no more exams this whole year. My violin exam's done and the results out! Distinction, YEAH!! Teacher Lily owes me a new shoulder rest. Oh my sweet god, the new shoulder rest looks so damned beautiful. I just can't wait to get it!

Now I'm looking forward to see my laopo. She's coming back from Australia this November! And then we'll go record our musical soundtracks together! Oh, the sweet memories are back! There really are a lot of activities lined up. 31st October is our Prefects Annual Party, 16th November Emily's coming back, 29th November is the Orchestra performance...

Oh and I'm getting free drums lessons! How awesome is that?? But just for one song, The Phantom of The Opera. It's so cool, I'm playing the drums in the civic hall! With my friends and all. I'm so excited!

But the boring thing after PMR is that we have to go for boring talks almost everyday. I'm not sure about the weeks later but now, the talks are so darned boring. I wished we could stay in class and play. Play like little childrens who haven't started school.

Besides, I must start appreciating the times I'm having now in SMKBBSP. I'm sure next year I'll miss this school a lot. Now I'm really worried that I can't fit into Sri Cempaka. I mean, everyone around me are rich kids. And their academic are much much better than mine. I might be ilke the new retard in school next year. And suddenly, I feel like falling from the sky without any parachutes. I'm gonna die, it's just the matter of time. 5 minutes? 5 days? 5 weeks? 5 months? I will, eventually..

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Global Warming

What the heck is this? I don't understand why global warming is happening.

Oh wait, I do, because of the stupid minds of human beings.

What the heck is wrong with us? We know that global warming is acting up and we keep contributing to make it worse? What's up with that? We always say that we're killing the earth, we're killing Mother Nature, does these people sleep peacefully, knowing they are murderers?

The selfishness in human beings, can only bring negative effects to human beings itself. If the word EARTH and MOTHER NATURE doesn't sink into the brains of these idiots, then think the way around it. WE'RE killing OUR home, WE'RE killing OUR nature, WE'RE killing OURSELVES!

Why can't we all be more considerate? Why can't we all be more caring? Well, sure, when we die the world might not be THAT polluted. But what about the future generations? They are our flesh and blood, do you want them to suffer these kinds of SHIT?

Please, I beg you, stop deforestation, stop open burning, stop building houses! People come and go, so do houses. If you build a new lot, please demolish an old lot to plant more trees. We don't need that many houses.

And celebrities, they've earned so much money, and yet they spent it on useless stuffs. Can't they use their money into buying lands so that developers will not cut down the green? Can't they use it for a greater good? Damn!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

PMR what the HECK?

The Second Day of PMR.

What the HECK? That stupid Science Paper 2 so damned hard. What is the Board of Education thinking? I bet they don't know how to answer those shit!

What the... My chance for getting A..Flushed down the drain. Just like that. Ploossh. Now I really don't wanna transfer school. If I can't get 5 As, I won't be able to study in the Science class. Now if that happens, my life will suck, stick like a pile of poo. I have no intention and interest in studying Accounts. What can I study there? I think science is easier to understand. What the! I really wanna shout out the four-letter words. Luckily I'm a well-mannered girl.

I'm so damned furious right now, even when I type the keyboard might break apart soon. Stupid paper! You ruined my day! You happy now?

Friday, September 25, 2009

Dreams

Harty,

Lately, I love to sleep. And there's a reason to that.

When you sleep, you drift to an unknown land. It can be happy, it can be sad. It can be colorful, it may even be dull. Sometimes you might drift to the same place, and sometimes you might find yourself in another strange and weird place.

This is what they call, a dream. Dreams can be wonderful or horrible. Sometimes, the decision is ours. Whether we want it like this, or like that. We control our dreams, it's just that we don't realize it.

There's a song called "A dream is a wish your heart makes". The lyrics that are solid in my memories are "A dream is a wish, your heart makes, when you're fast asleep,
In dreams you will lose your heartaches, Whatever you wish for you keep" I find this true. In your dreams, whatever that is bothering you will stop bothering you at that time.

When I was a little kid, I always dream that I could fly. I was one of the Powerpuff Girls. Every time after I wake up from that dream, I feel happy, cause in my dream, I get to fly over traffic jams. I get to go anywhere I want to. I get to beat up monsters. It was funny, I know, that's what made me happy. Sometimes I get this dream over and over again, and sometimes I might accidentally wake up. Those times, I will just close my eyes and imagine the ending. That's a way to control my dreams.

Then, I remember there was one time I woke up crying. That dream was about my mom, being framed and went to prison, while the real criminal was outside, with girls around him and enjoying life. The police that arrested my mom was my neighbor. It was indeed a weird dream, but I was 5. I didn't know any better. I woke up crying and ran to my parents' room to sleep with them the rest of the night.

My best dreams were that I was performing on stage with Lee Hom. It was my first dream about him. It was in 2007, and the Prefect Party was coming up. It was also the first time I perform violin in school, well, techincally it's not school, but still in front of my school mates. So the week before the party, I dreamed of him. Lee Hom was visiting my school. Puan Koh and the teachers insisted that he perform a duet with me. I was so happy, I forgot that my violin sucked and accept the "invitation". But when I started performing, I woke up. After that, I seldom get Lee Hom dreams, although I wanted it so badly. That's the only time I couldn't control my dreams.

Last year, most of my dreams are tiring. Usually, I find myself running from something. I need to run for my life, but I don't have the strength. My friends who were running with me abandoned me. I woke up several times, tired like I've never had any sleep. Maybe this was because the horrible year I had last year. Luckily, I seldom have those dreams this year.

But, there IS a dream that made me laugh non-stop. Jay Chou killing my family members. Of all the person, JAY CHOU. I don't understand why. The way he killed my family was that he hung my family members' thumbs onto the door and made them bleed to death in that little injury. I told a lot of my friends about that dream. It made them laugh up too.

So, when I go to bed, and close my eyes, I hope to get into my dreamland as soon as possible. Problems, worries, depressions are all gone. It's like a heaven for my soul when I'm asleep. Thank goodness there's something like "dream" that existed. It's my problem solver, my life saver.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

What a day..WHAT A DAY!! C=

Bwahahahaha!! Hey Harty! I haven't had so much fun since a long time ago!!

It's about the orchestra performance on 12th and 13th of September 2009 in Bukit Jalil. Hahahahahaha..

Sorry, I can't keep my mind of it.. It was so damned fun!

It started off like this..
12th September 2009
10.10 am, Teacher lily came and fetch me. We went to the photostat shop to photostat the pratice schedule and the song list of the performance. We also photos
tatted the song piece. Then, we went to Saxon to get some things then went to the store to fetch May Shuen. In the meantime, teacher dropped me off in Kos Store to buy a piece of black card. Then we headed for Tan Yew Lai. It was like an oven there. We took the T-shirts and music stands and blablabla then headed for Bukit Jalil. Finally!! Then when we reached there, teacher asked the boys to come down and help move the things. Later we set up all our percussion instruments and rested for a while then went for lunch.

After lunch, we started rehearsal. Just then, Yin Hang came. So I
started to go crazy with her. Rehearse rehearse rehearse. Geoffrey keep coming over to kacau during breaks. Then, dinner time. Well, you can say we had a great dinner. After that we changed into our performing clothes.
We had to wait for 2 hours before we can start performing. We were all in a suana, sweat keep rolling down our body. We joked around with a lot of people and some new friends. Well, Yin Hang and I already know May Shuen, Lock See, Geoffrey, blablabla, new friends like Young Pin, Josephine and more but I'm tired to type out.. We had new nickna
mes too! Yin Hang was of course called Bank, Lock See was given the nickname "Screw", Young Pin was 传染给你啊 or 传染, his brother H1N1, Geoffrey and I were special. His was a slam on the table and mine was a slap on the table with a nod. Weird, but that's how we became friends.

We were having the time of our lives. Suddenly, I don't know why, the memories that I've had with Emily last year in Bukit Jalil for the same reason, performing in orchestra, slammed into my head. I went from as happy as a lark into emo. I really missed her, so does e
veryone who knew her. I couldn't take it, so I just went away from the group and spent some time alone. Then Geoffrey had to ruin it, he pushed me which distracted me suddenly. So I went back to the group, and laugh again. There was a saying "If you wait to be happy, you will wait forever but if you start to be happy, you will be happy forever". I like that very much. So I just tried and laugh it all out.

Then the performance was going to start. We went inside to standby and wait for the waiters and waitress to collect the dishes. Then we started playing. It went on q
uite well, actually, except for Sungai Pahang. The pianist thought the wrong signal from teacher Lily and started playing before everyone was ready. Luckily teacher Lily knows how to clean up a mess. And at least I have Yin Hang to keep me company when teacher Lily conducted the four songs. She was doing really well, compared to me last year. The performance ended as fast as it started. Then we all packed and move our percussion instruments and the double basses to the restaurant downstairs for safe keeping. After that we just went home to rest and sleep. A big day ahead of us, AGAIN.

13th September 2009
Today, teacher Lily didn't fetch me. My parents dropped me off in Bukit Jalil after lunch. Turns out that I was too early and very few people reached there. So I waited f
or teacher Lily and Yin Hang and May Shuen and Lock See. When I called teacher, she told me to move all the percussion instruments upstairs first. So, with the help from Yen Ling (thanks again!), we moved the heavy stuffs like the xylophone (or what's it called i forgot) and the cymbals and the stands and everything. Then I set up the instruments all by myself (yeah~i rock!) and waited for the arrival of the four pretty ladies. I sat there waiting, bored to hell, luckily Geoffrey came not long after I set the instruments. But we also didn't talk much, so makes no difference. I waited and waited, then I decided to go downstairs and wait. When I walked down the stairs, teacher's car just pulled up in front. How great can my timing be? So, again I moved the things to the upstairs ballroom and tidy things up. Not long after that, rehearsal started.

We picked off what we weren't doing so good yesterday. Then full rehearsal. After the rehearsals, a lot of people went missing. They didn't went home to shower. Maybe they went bowling or what. Teacher brought cards to play. Measure Up and Classical Snap. Teacher, Yin Hang and I played Measure Up with Double Bassist Thye Sim. Teacher taught him the rules of the game. He lost in the first round but won in the second. I forgot who won in the third round, but I'm sure it wasn't me. Then we switched into Classical Snap. This is byfar the BEST card game. It started off with the four of us, then came Lock See. As the time goes by, more and more people gathered around the table to see what's cooking. Then the group of people who went missing came back and joined the game. Nicholas was one of them. That round was the funniest. If I remembered correctly, the players were Lock See, Nicholas, Jason, our concert master (forgot his name, sorry!!), me and some people also, but I can't seem to remember. We played and played, then suddenly Mr. Chan came and stopped the game and asked us to go for dinner.

Dinner was great, too. Different dishes from yesterday, but still g
ood. After dinner, we wandered around the golf course, taking pictures which looked like we were in Cameron Highlands. Then we went to change into our performing clothes. We got back, and put down our things, and started Snap again. Me, Yin Hang, May Shuen, Lock See, Geoffrey, Young Pin, Young Wei (is that his name? I forgot. I have a bad memory) started playing. Then, during a round, Geoffrey slammed his hand onto the pile of hands on top of the cards, and it hit mine. Well, my skin blushes quite easily no matter how hard you hit it, and I admit, Geoffrey's hit was hard, but not THAT pain. Believe me, I've got worse. So, I waited for my hand to redden up. When it did, I showed it to him. Haha, he was so shocked. We continued playing and more people joined. It became so hot, hotter than last night, some of them actually quit and went into the air-conditioned ballroom. When it was really really hot, the game was "canceled". We went inside and just in time for the performance.

Oh, forgot to tell you, I saw Xin Yi there with her parents. They were having dinner as her aunt was the church member. We played the songs quite smoothly. Today there were "professional photographers" there, recording our songs. Actually, personally I think that the photographers took mostly of their friend's photos. But, we had fun, that's what it matters! The same thing, the performance ended as fast as it started. Then we had our group photos taken!

(I'm the one in the middle, with a "X" arm pose.)

After that, same thing also, we packed the things and moved it into the lorry. When we got onto the car, Yin Hang sang a few words of an old song which made everyone crack up. We made faces to Young Pin the same way he made when he went home yesterday. Then we headed back to Tan Yew Lai to move the instruments back into the orchestra rehearsal studio. On the way back, we saw Thye Sim and Mr. Chan. Thye Sim was walking to his car while we met Mr. Chan in the traffic light. Yin Hang and I sang "对你爱爱爱不完" to them. Everyone was sweating so much, we looked like we went for a swim. The boys took off their coats and rolled up their sleves but the girls couldn't do so, so we suffered. After everything was in place, we finally went home. I admit, it was tiring and exhausting, but it was worth it. It was so entertaining, especially to me. If I could replay that time again, I most certainly will.